take care of yourself.


Hey there. Yeah, it’s me, sneaking into your inbox or your WordPress Reader or wherever you find me. I hope you’re alright.

I’m eating breakfast right now, before I have a 12 1/2 hour day at school. Of course I’m stressed, and I know I’ll be tired later, but instead of sleeping in, I took the extra time to shower and make myself breakfast. Why?

Because I’m taking care of myself.

We don’t always need what sounds easy to us. I could have easily slept another hour. But I chose to give my body what it needed, and today, it needed a nice morning to prepare for the day ahead.

I have to treat myself like a toddler sometimes. When a toddler doesn’t want to eat or bathe or sleep, you have to show them to do it anyway. Because they need it, even if they don’t know any better.

But wait a minute, we do know better. You’re right! So why don’t we do better? One simple answer: it’s no easier to do what’s right for ourselves as adults than it is when we’re kids. That’s just the truth.

I understand that it’s better to go to bed early, but I will still stay up later than I should because in the now, I want to watch Netflix.

Self care isn’t always easy! It’s definitely not that face mask, bath bomb, candle stuff the world wants us to think it is. It’s going to school even if you’re sick because otherwise, you’d have to catch up.

Self care is taking two seconds to take a break from something you really love because you’ve been staring at a screen too long. You do need to look away from the screen every once in a while. Right?

We know better. But do we?

Let’s make a pledge: do better, not just know better. You deserve it.

-ellynn

samhain sleeps: a halloween poem.


the last of the october nights

end of harvest, fading lights

sun descending, rays in flight

here is darkness; gone is white

grasping fingers

the dead of winter

a bony, dwindling,

icy figure

the summer grieves

her cold frost sleeve

she sleeps, asweve,

on winter’s eve

the shadow grows

a frozen pose,

all warmth in throes,

engulfed in crows

and wintry plans,

they do conspire

deep within the cold quagmires

on this,

the festival of fire

the dark and bright,

they will divide

and from the other

they must hide

a maiden of the crown and thorn

must rest before she is reborn,

but winter will, himself, adorn

as warmth and light is now adjourned.

digital minimalism.


In a world caught in the hustle and bustle of “I have to do this NOW,” it’s so easy to let clutter accumulate everywhere in our lives. I’m not just talking about your laundry, the dishes, coffee cups in your car console… I’m talking about digital clutter. Mental clutter.

How long do you spend deleting emails? Wouldn’t it be so much better if you just hit unsubscribe? What sort of posts do you see on your Facebook/Instagram/Twitter/Snapchat/(TikTok???) feed that you wish weren’t there? Why don’t we unfollow them? It’s hard. That’s why.

Nobody realizes it — a follow here, a like there — how quickly we can add to our mental clutter. “Oh, I get a [coupon, special offer, ebook, download] if I sign up for this mailing list!” Easy as pie. But then they just keep sending you stuff. I have emails in my inbox that sometimes, I have no idea how they got there.

The advertisements, junk mail, YouTube links, business cards. I’m tired of it! Because the good stuff, the really good stuff that I actually want to see/hear/read gets lost in the pile of crap and marketing. My mind gets so jumbled up that I’m not sure what I even want in my inbox. So how do we stop this? I made another list thing.

  1. Unfollow, Unfriend: You don’t have to do this all at once. In fact, I don’t recommend you spend hours scrolling through your subscriptions, followings, lists… Simply try this. When you see something you don’t like, get it out of your sight. Make it so that you don’t come across it again.
  2. Decide What You Want: What inspires you? What is your brand? What do you agree with? What challenges you? Answering these questions are so important because they’re the deciding factor in what media you’re taking in.
  3. Find Stuff You Like: After you consider number 2, you can go out and carefully seek the information and media you want to absorb. This is when you find content that’s good for you. The amazing part is, you can curate your emails! You can choose how your Instagram feed looks! You just have to do so thoughtfully.
  4. Take a Break: Seriously. Put down the electronics, the magazines, the junk mail. Step away from it for a while.
  5. Let It Out: Our brains can harbor all sorts of thoughts, gathered from the mass jumble of jargon spewed at us 24/7. Make a big list of what’s in your brain. On one page, write down everything you’re thinking of. Examine the list. Is any of this useful? Circle it and figure out what to do with those thoughts. The rest? Cross it off.

Of course, nothing is ever as simple as getting rid of it for good. You will likely need to make this a habit every six months, or every week, depending on how popular you are. 😉

Happy cleansing.

-ellynn

6 years on wordpress.


When did this happen? Have I really been here this long? Did I seriously open this account as an 11 year old?

When I was seven, I decided I would be a writer. Ten years later, here I am. Poetry published in six places, three other books in the works, planning for college.

Did little me know this was where I was headed? Do the people around me know how much it means to be living in a dream? There are people who have followed this blog for as long as I’ve been posting. Wow!

I get people asking me why I don’t care that I’m not monetized, or why I don’t get sponsorships or reviews. I get questions about why, being so young, I waste my time writing. It’s not a waste.

I get to engage with a community of writers who care about what I have to say. It’s rare that young, LGBTQ+ women are listened to on any platform. It means so much to see responses and engagements on this website. It’s amazing.

Six years of just learning who I am. Two years of sharing what I love. Three months of being a published author. I know what I want to be when I grow up: a writer. I can’t wait to keep growing and sharing my world with you lovely people. Thanks for sticking around.

-ellynn

i’m writing a novel. again.


Hello, my lovely readers! I wanted to reach out and post something, as I haven’t for a while. Many of you know I’m a high school student, so blogging isn’t always my first priority (although I wish it could be!). You may be familiar with what we writers call “NaNoWriMo,” or National Novel Writing Month. Yeah, I’m doing that again.

Last year, I made 35,000 words of headway on my novel, “Guilty.” This year, my plan is to win. Winning means 50,000 words of pure writing! This means I’m doing lots of character work, and I’m trying all sorts of prep tactics so I don’t fall behind.

My novel plot this year is about a young boy named Kasey who disappears after celebrating a successful Pinewood Derby race with a buddy. His older sister and parents are forced to move on because the police and the town both stop searching for him. It gets to be a year or so, and his older sister decides to suck it up and sift through all the boxes in the shed where they used to hang out. She finds her great-grandmother’s Book of Shadows and becomes a witch.

I think it’s a very strong plot, and I’m hoping that one day, you all will get to (or want to) read it! I’ve never written horror/supernatural before. There’s a first time for everything. 🙂

So how am I prepping? I’m listening to “How to Win NaNo” and “Write-Minded,” two excellent podcasts I found on Spotify. Spotify, might I say, is an excellent place to find podcasts…they’re free, you can download them, and you can set them to nighttime mode so they only play for a certain amount of time. I don’t have Spotify premium. Totally recommend these two podcasts (and Kalyn’s Coffee Talk if you aren’t into writing).

I’m also going through NaNoWriMo’s free prep book on their website. It’s helping me with world-building (although it’s set in upstate New York), character building, motivation, plot holes…the whole nine yards. NaNo’s website also holds a bunch of forums and exciting community things to keep you motivated and working all November long.

I’m pre-writing a little of my novel. My plan is to have the first 5,000 words done before November. I realize this is cheating, which is why I labeled myself as a NaNo Rebel on my account. Which, by the way, if you’d like to add me as a NaNo buddy, my username is @rachelellynnm! I also have a new author instagram called @rachelellynnmauthor. Follow me everywhere. 🙂

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anyway, that’s my quick update. comment below if you’re NaNo-ing too!

september astrology.


Here’s a column I wrote for a newspaper that didn’t make the cut. Decided to put it here.

Aries (MAR 21-APR 20): It’s a good time for you to get things done, as competitive Mars will remain in Virgo until October. The increased drive can lead to quick anger in Aries, so be mindful of how you express your feelings this month. Aggression is ill-advised, and it would be wise to stay out of arguments.

Taurus (APR 21-MAY 21): Not the best month for any romantic relationships — Virgo season puts a stop to that. However, your cousin Libra will soon accept your shared ruling planet, Venus; expect ease in professional and personal relationships mid-month. Remain confident in your identity. You are strong.

Gemini (MAY 22-JUN 22): Gemini, your intellectual side will come up several times this month. With brilliant and communicative Mercury in Virgo, you may notice that it’s easier to speak about your ideas. It’s time to seek the answers you need, and if you can’t find them, ask for help. Guidance will be given.

Cancer (JUN 23-JUL 23): Cancer’s energy should feel a boost around September, as the Moon is going to pass through Virgo, the sign of health and nurturing. Be wary of your aggressive tendencies toward emotions; allow yourself to spend some time committing to self-care. You’re worth it.

Leo (JUL 24-AUG 23): It’s normal after a sign has passed through their seasons to feel drained, especially after Leo’s boldness and flamboyance was so prominently highlighted in August. Some introvert time may be necessary, but the Sun still rules until September 23rd, the Equinox. Don’t let your light dim too much.

Virgo (AUG 24-SEP 23): It’s your time to shine! Your service-oriented heart and analytical brain are in full swing, so use this to your advantage. You’ll be able to help more people and be more organized this month, but don’t forget to acknowledge that you need to serve yourself as well. You deserve love.

Libra (SEP 24-OCT 23): The beginning of September may be difficult, as Venus doesn’t like to be in Virgo. However, charming Venus and amusing Mercury both enter Libra on September 14th to ease Libra’s struggling relationships. The Sun enters Libra on the Equinox for a balanced, peaceful end to the month.

Scorpio (OCT 24-NOV 22): One word comes to the surface this September: introspection. You may find yourself “in the feels,” contemplating your ambitions, passions, and new beginnings. The depth of Pluto can offer a sort of mental clarity you may have been seeking over the summer. Spend time in thought.

Sagittarius (NOV 23-DEC 21): It’s a month of optimism for Sagittarians, kicking off with Jupiter in Sagittarius squaring Venus in Virgo. All signs point to “yes,” and you’re on a roller coaster that only goes up. Dive into new friendships, schools of thought, or places to visit. The outcome might just surprise you.

Capricorn (DEC 22-JAN 20): The beginning of this month puts a damper on the emotional side of Capricorn, but don’t stress, as your knack for hard work will come to light by the second week. Motivating Saturn goes direct in Capricorn on the 18th, allowing you to reflect on the previous April retrograde.

Aquarius (JAN 21-FEB 19): Aquarius is rather quiet during this upcoming month. You may want to spend some time with the people you trust. October can bring up some unexpected anxieties, so start to prepare for the ahead stressors. We can often store up our energy for when it is needed most. You’ve got this.

Pisces (FEB 20-MAR 20): For much of this month, you might have trouble remembering who you are. Creativity can run wild, but a sense of self can disappear. Use that boost to remember your true nature and take care of yourself. It’s okay if your outer protections falter or even change. Treat yourself gently.